01/01/07 - New year
Remember the cold, remember how it bites your skin, numbs your fingers, chills your hands where it sweats holding the cell phone you brought on the run so you could get back into the apartment when you are done running.
it is early. Little after 8 am on monday jan first. I am running along lake michigan, Along Lincoln Park in downtown Chicago.
started running this summer. Smashed the glass I was drinking from, "I will never talk to you again" hung up the phone on my father. Changed my cloths, turned on the iPod, blaring her music as loud as i could and i ran. And now I run. Run and run and run, 252.3 miles, @ 7:54 a mile (http://nike.com/plus). now i can look at myself in the mirror naked and like what i see, for the first time in nearly 30 years.
In six months running had become the constant in my life. it has trimmed away the fat from my body, given my mind a place and time to be alone with my thoughts, and today the opportunity to explore a place. or in this case a chance to rediscover it.
I am pounding along the cement breakwater, the blue green glow of the water fading out to the flat steel gray sky of a mid west winter. The water is still. I am in awe of such a large body of water, 5th (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lake_Michigan) largest body of fresh water with such a tranquil demeanor, unlike the raging pacific ocean i normally run along.
The beauty, the light, it glows blue, the same blue green i remember form when i was in school. My eyes water, not sure if it is the cold or my heart. I am overwhelmed. and i keep running, no camera with me for the second time in 2 days, by the lake in amazing light, no camera. I must just remember, bite in to the memories as the wind bites into my skin, chills my hands and legs, relentless, unforgiving, pure by nature, knowing nothing else. Use this light the memories of this light as the foundation of the my future. remember this, like the memories from school that are flooding back
I run all the way down to oak street beach, under the Hancock building http://www.hancock-observatory.com/ and the Drake, site of so many photos, nights, art projects, for school, when i was here before. It is the same, plastic champaign corks littering the beach.
Chicago where i went to school, where i ran from my home as far and as fast as I could. now I am running, literally, pushing farther, it is cold, even with layers, but i push on 4 miles before i turn around, I have cash i could take a cab if need be.
I start wishing everyone i pass a happy new year as i run back. The majority of people wish me back one as well, once they get past the idea that a stranger talking to them is not a threat, is actually wishing them well. I am a 12 year old.
On the road tomorrow am, time alone starts, more time for updating this blog and sharing the photos i have taken